To the child I never knew
Current mood: 
sad
Dear Angel,
How can I begin this letter to you? The first thing I want you to know is how much I loved you. I would have given up my life just so you could have had a chance to see life. You grew inside my womb, you ate from me, slept in me, moved inside of me. If I can just turn back the hands of time and had once more chance, just one more chance to start over, I would have taken better care of myself. i wouldnt have let your father upset me so much, despite his lying, his cheating and him making me cry everyday. You were so loved. The day I found out about you I went to shop for baby stuff just for you. I was your mother, I loved you. I never would have hurt you. I would have devoted my life to you, just to see you happy my little boy. I wish God didnt take you away from me. I wish he could have just given me a chance to take care of you, to cradle you in my arms every night. I wish I had the chance to smell your aroma of innocence, to see your first smile, to kiss your cheeks, to wipe the tears from your face. My dreams are all shattered and my heart is broken in a million of pieces. I was your mother for a temporary time but am I still considered to be a mother? To be your mother? I cry everyday because I cant get over the pain of losing you. I just hope your little soul is in a better place and I hope you do know how much I wanted you. My son why did you leave me? Why did you leave your mother with a huge gash in her heart, with an empty soul, and an empty cradle? Please come back to me.
Love,
Your mother forever,
Vanessa
